Hope and pray all is well. Found a message from way back that will encourage you. PTL
PREDESTINED TO CHRIST Romans 8:28-30, 35-39 And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose. For whom he did foreknow, he also did predestinate to be conformed to the image of his Son, that he might be the firstborn among many brethren. Moreover whom he did predestinate, them he also called: and whom he called, them he also justified: and whom he justified, them he also glorified. All things are for our good. This happens when we are submitted to the will of God. This speaks of the elect- -those who are going to be called, justified, and glorified. God looked from the beginning of the world and saw me in maturity-glorified. So I can stomp the Ishmaelite nature, and the Israelite nature can come forth, If God sees me glorified, I can make it. There can be no doubt in me that I can make it--God already saw it. And he justified me- -all sin is forgiven. Therefore I have no past. I have been justified. No condemnation for the past. No matter what or who rises up against you. Don't even consider death, famine, pestilence, etc, for ...if God is for us, who can be against us? Nothing! Do I know God? My spirit has to say, "Yes-better than ever, for a long time--longer than I know. For He called me and knew me from the beginning of the world." Don't walk like a spiritual midget but like a spiritual giant.